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ErnErn Chen, Ngee Ann Poly,
Early childhood education, (L)CaiXing  30 day letter challenge @ ThreeZero Nuffnang
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Monday, September 22, 2008
fend for yourself. in the end, its your own life that matters. not how much youve helped others with theirs. Tuesday, September 16, 2008
im still tired. ): skipped sch today. headache! hopefully AhTan acceptsmy letter tmr. i wna go sleeeeeep again. byebye. Thursday, September 11, 2008
3. jie, i wasnt crying bcos of a breakup or a quarrel this time. i cried, bcos when i was lousy, mama papa will say me. bt when i improve, when i try harder, i get sarcastic remarks or no reply at all. its tiring, having to suddenly push myself so hard. bt nth tires me out more than being at home. even if papa nd mama start to praise me nd support me, i dont think i can proudly say that i love them. whre were they, when i needed their encouragement, their support. whre were they, when i needed them most? 2. cant u even praise me for having a change in attitude towards studying? evryone can tell. evryone,except th 2 most impt. thanks alot, mum &dad. dont blame me when u know i ve been hurting myself. th pain inside is worst. dont hate me if u realise that im gone. u didnt realise tt i was alive in th first place. jie, i knw u disagree and feel like slapping me now. bt ive rly changed. i tried telling, bt no one bothered to listen .. i didnt cry bcos of any guy this time. 1. tried talking to my parents today. one dig ear watch tv while i tried to talk, one put face mask. niceone parents. u just added a factor to my im-going-crazy-damn-soon list. gdjob. and all i wanted when papa mama knew i was crying was a nice warm hug. tt was what i craved for. what did i get? my papa looking at me like O,o that. and went back to his room. srsly, i try so hard to tell myself u do love me, bt with ur actions, its sososo hard. Wednesday, September 10, 2008
ive started to work rly hard and push myself all th way. its barely been a week before i started and i alrdy feel suicidal. yushan made an innocent remark during math today. bt it rly crushed me. frm then on it was like evrything was just bad. going home jus made things worse. at least at sch i have pple to kip me occupied. at hme, i jus kip thinking and thinking .. its a horrible feeling .. i wna be in a coma for a while, let me rest for awhile .. Tuesday, September 9, 2008
ohmygoshhh. just saw MR-M's blog. i still think hes th sweetest and cutest okay! th way he treat his gf like OMG so sweeeeet >< actually, i think im so happy when i see MR-M is cos he reminds me of. yeahhhhh~ i dont know if thats a good thing, but to me it is. at least i can be happy, without some idioticirritatinggg people kpoing. like super wanto sew up your mouth laaahhh! ARGH. anws, subwayed with chairsea/football today! super bring back memories lorrrr. ): andand, we have weird names for each other. reen ; tragus nehneh ; bala /leBi's-.- gladys ; HAPPY:D chels ; chairC/football th rest, im not sure. but yeahhhh. we're sec4s, SO WHAT. we can still fool arnd like kids. young at heart (: BACK TO MR-M. okok, i ll call him mysterio. LOL. i still think hes cute. not cos he's him. but cos he looks like/acts like/IS LIKE ahem. yepyep. MEMORIESo.o horrid things. make me forget what math question im on or what formula im trying to rmb or what im even supposed to be doing. but anyhoos. i miss you, YOU KNOW ? ): Monday, September 8, 2008
mrlim and mstans koi thingy has got me going again. hopefully this time, the motivation stays, unlike th past incidents whre i stayed motivated for a week only? rawr. anws, art p1 due next monday!!!!! i have about 20% to go. gdluck to me maaan .. andand, im dead srs about wanting to score in science. i need to do well in science to get in healthsciences!! my bio only needs abit of revising, but my chem requires immediate attention!!!!!!!! im gna do smth bout it, and stop whininggg ovr it, do smth bout it!? Saturday, September 6, 2008
YELLOW. currently at my cousinsss house. theyre watching, soccer ? hhaha, entertaining myself here. i HOPE i ll be able to blog regularly, using PSP or SISTERS LAPTOP -.- but i doubt so, so. the next time i really REALLY blog will be, 70 days later, after olvls and FINALLYYYY able to get my vaio back. i miss it like craaaaazzzaaaayyyyy. Friday, September 5, 2008
thanks you two. although its th same two whom caused all th heartbreaks, and even when you two are cursing and swearing at each othr, iloveyou(: without you two always cheering me on, i ll be dead by now. all th sweet msges and cheery calls really brightened up my life. alhough i cant openly talk to one of u in school, and i cant be tgt with the othr, i ll always rmb th love u showered ovr me, i ll nv forget u two, my deardear brothers(: |
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