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ErnErn Chen, Ngee Ann Poly,
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
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Boredom is an emotional state experienced during periods lacking activity or when individuals are uninterested in the activities surrounding them. http://www.bored.com/ < new game site i found when i googled th word 'BORED'. coolshit. (= BORED. i want eat bread. :D pikachu makes your day! so random my lion is daaaamn cute so is my seahorse and blue thing that sticks onto clothes kindajoy makes me feel JOY HOHOHOHO Thursday, March 19, 2009
 I bet you re happy w this picture HOHO today i felt happy th entire dayyyy!!!!! :D hongsheng came over and we just slacked th whole day away i just wish for more days like these blessed truly blessed! and tmr SENTOSA WOOHOO lets go wild tmr! :D thank you for everything today love im really happy! today reminded me of how we were 10months back i just feel soo relaxed and carefree! havent felt this way for a REEEALLLY long time nothing was bugging my mind and stuffs (= i just wish that we can remain like this for a really, really really long time .. im sure u enjoyed today too, right? peanutbutter king! LOL. i love you! let us have more of todays happiness alright? >< MWAHS! thanks for everything love! Wednesday, March 18, 2009
everything this song says, i wna tell you. so LISTEN & READ & UNDERSTAND! dont understand read AGAIN! like compre u know. im teaching u a valuable lesson laa, good right, lol! Tuesday, March 17, 2009
do i really have to cry myself to sleep every single night? i dont know what to say anymore. i just love you, so so so very much. i think glory left for ntuc alr, D= my sis'll be home in an hour+. im bored. i feel like running a marathon now. i think running rocks. aft yesterdays run. i just didnt wna stop man .. haha. felt good. shall do it again later when th sun starts to set. i dont wna be like someones back. redtan tanred dernat natder (= Monday, March 16, 2009
IM NOT EMO I JUST MISS YOU maybe youre right im lovesick. whats th diff between one-sided-love &if one partner loves more than th other? NOTHING. whats th similarity between one-sided-love &if one partner loves more than th other? BOTH HURT(s) LIKE HELLLLLL. i feel like giving up alr. its been what, 3days? im sucha sucker for heartaches &being alone &having to cover it all up i just miss you a lot. i just miss the old you a lot a lot a lot a lot A LOT. don't hate/be angry with/fuss about/talk to/message me. im just being emo for now. i just cant get over certain facts going on in my brain now. i ll get over it in a bit. and then start fussing bout it all over agaaain. its like a death cycle. ignore me if you must. just dont be angry w me. i know you re being nice to me nowwww my brain just refuses to cooperateeee but its just not th same anymoreeee i should stop asking for more i knowwww but its so hard when i ve had something for a yearrrr and gotta give it all up in a dayyyyy youknowyouknowyouknow. was i really that mean in th past? THAT mean? )= im sorry. EmoX period. happens everyday nowadays. gotta go get some stupid pill, gotta make my brain think like it should!  why on earth did i treat u like i did .. i have noo idea what made me be that way, absolutely no idea if only i can turn back time ; if only i can control th present ; if only i can see into th future ; i'd make th world a better place i'd make love exist in every knook and cranny on earth i'd love you like i'll never love anyone else i'll make people realise their mistakes before others give up on them .. i always felt that jealousy is th worst feeling in th world. now i know that there's an even worst feeling, REGRET. makes u feel like jumping back in time makes you wish you could do so many things when its already impossible makes you feel like bashing ur head into th wall cuz you were sucha sucker and you didnt know till now! i just wish to hear you whisper i love you once again i just want us to be like how we were in th past .. is that really v hard on you ? i miss you. like no other)=      she looks so relaxed right?  LOOK AT ME, IT WAS SO HEAVY MY HANDS WERE GNA FALL OFF LA! LOL.     HELLOHELLOHELLO im gna type out my ENTIRE DAY WOOHOO. lol! OKAY. i woke up at 11 today! then i slacked arnd, ate egg w tomato and onions! then i was watching mythbusters they put 2 dead pigs into a sportscar and let them rot for 2 months and then try to sell th car. HAHAHA. then i kajiaoed glory then i asked if i could follow her to nUtc. then she said YES YAYYYY so i went to dress up LOLOL i wento find which jacket pei what blahblahblah in th end still wore shit clothes HAHA. it was super cold!!!!!!!! raining and all so i continued watching tv for awhile watched style her famous ohman i also wna join th show la! k nvm. then th heavy rain bcome drizzle! so we left for NTUC! we wento th shops outside heartland cos glory wanted to buy slippers (= thenshe was trying out th slipper the floor was wet so th CHINA shop auntie not happy so she started scolding her in CHINESE DUMBDUMB! think i malay ar?! tsk. so i told glory what she was saying then glory walked away without buying anything LOL - - quite funneh to see glory like go HMPH! HAHAHAHA then we wento ntuc!!!!!!! buybuybuy i bought this beef and cheese pie thingy NICE LAA! i MADE IT MY SELF HAHAHA no la i just threw it into th microwave z. but it was so niceeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! see th pictures?! lol and i ateateate. and i watched this chinese show for a while no idea whats going on but there was this scene where th gf v bad owards her bf felt like strangling her then i realised smth then i was like OHH, now i know how it feels - - ANYWAY, then i went up sent th pics to my com and HELLO!!!!!!! its only FIVE )= nvm. another 6more hours till i slp to tmrw. zz i feel like im in jail! HAHAH. nvm. im gna go running once my pie has digested! and im not having dinner alr! SO FULL! gotta 'bake' that pie someday again (= and 22nd this sunday! usually, you d ask me whether wna go out and where to go all that i rmbed saying before, ' aiya dont wna go la its just another day what! ' ohmygod lah. i suck. im sorry )= but nvm, this time i asked u! hahahaa, so i got 3 things to look forward to! thursday, sunday & THAILAND ((((= YAYYY. okay idk what to do nownownownownow D= i go explore BYEBYEBYEBYE my post so long and draggy and boring, tsk so sad but nvm at most 3pple read only, LOL. hope shireens enjoying malaysia! hope gladys had fun shopping! hope hongsheng had fun today! HOPE ERNERN ISNT BORED TMRW! LOL. Saturday, March 14, 2009
  me likey. (=     im veh bored. i miss chocolate. i ll go get some ltr, if i dont feel lazy. lol. Friday, March 13, 2009
i ll restart my blog when i m 100% normal& back to ernie. for now, its just the 3 of you (=  SHIREEN, you ve been strong when it happened to you. i know what a bastard he was. worst than what happened to me. but, you took it in your own hands. u were sad for a day, but you grew out of it. you knew that life had to go on, you were strong. everytime i break down, i ll think, 'shireen did it before. she went thru a worst situation, why cant i too?' i want to be as strong as you i want to be able to get over things like you did. you were amazing. i can honestly say that you re my idol when it comes to relationships. thank you for being there for me! rushing over when i called you crying .. buying strawberrycheesecake to make me happy! i dont know if you feel this way. but to me, i feel that everyone thinks im stronger than i really am. and when i eventually break down, it seems so alien, like it would never happen to me. i opened my blog only to you three, cause i feel that you three know me well enough. that you three really bother. i know, EmoX - - but, its true. i really love you three people alot alot! thank you so much shireen, gladys! i love you manymanymany! and th dress v nice thanks for persuading me to buy, LOL. see, a third of me is back alr! :D  i made this last night. i couldnt think of anything else cept you. i dont know if you believe me or not. i dont bother cause i know i dont lie bout things like these when i was at bugis i d look at th guy clothes and think, that suits you or, u will like that. maybe its time. aft a while it ll go away. but i doubt so. i ve been thru this thrice. i know what im saying. i know the difference .. im tired. im very tired alr .. its only been a day. i cant take it alr. i wna sleep. i wna take a longggg sleep. if only i could fall asleep w/o crying if only i had you beside me if only i had learnt to cherish earlier  you re telling me all these has faded away? every single word u said, all gone? i refuse to believe it. i never will till you do something drastic, till you tell me that you love another girl. till you tell me that we can never be together again. till th day you tell me in my face, that you will never have any feelings for me anymore. i dont believe you can be the guy you are now. i know th You a few months back is still somewhere in you. i refuse to give up. i ve been missing you like crazy. when i receive your messages, its like i feel that you care again. but when i open th msges and read them, it feels like you re being forced to reply, like you re replying me cuz you re afraid i ll break down again. you may say that im thinking too much, but its because i dont wanna lose you, and i can't. a day knowing that you re not mine anymore makes me feel so alone, so neglected, so alien. like the happy ernern isnt here anymore. all i think bout is us. the old us. dont u remember th happy times we ve had together before? can u really just forget all of them just like that? you say that you ll get back w me bcos i gave u the chance last year and u think its only fair that you give me the chance this year. it feels so horrible its feels like im forcing someone to do something unwillingly cuz everytime i try to show u i care, or show you how much u mean to me, it never gets appreciated or taken note of. when i think bout why youre treating me like that, it all comes down to, you just dont love me anymore. i ll never be put in first priority ever again, i ll have to 'queue up' behind gym &ur friends just to go out w you, am i really such an unimportant part in your life? i ll have to wait patiently for your replies cuz i dont wna anger you. cuz everytime i receive your messages, i feel so blessed. i dont know if what im doing is right .. should i just hold in all th pain and not give up, hoping that one day it ll work out again. or should i just give up now, go thru th horror and get over it. i really dont know. all i know is that, i really love you. i do. i dont care what others say. just by going thru today w/o you officially in my life, it feels like half of my happiness is missing. im crying most of th time .. i cant think bout anything else anymore .. i know. you have youre studies, youre friends. your gym. your own life. but i didnt treat you like that in th past .. i did make way for you i didnt say things that i wouldnt normally say i dont know man. you re so different now. yet i yearn to be able to say youre still mine telling me that you ve no time but going to the gym, going kayaking, going out w your friends? i just cant stop crying. it wasnt that bad before, 2years ago now it feels like i ve got no joy no happiness no fun no company no life i really miss you i dont think i ve ever been so serious bout this before my eyes are tired from all th crying tearing, sobbing i hope you understand what im trying to tell you .. dont leave me in the lurch i beg you no, i dont just need you here. i want your love, i want to know you truely care. you might say im being mushy &stuff bt what im saying is true i cant lose you i really really cant .. LOVE YOU GIRLS MWAHS! :D sorry i ruined th day. i wont cry alrdy, promise (=    ME = 180cm , HAHAHAHA.   shireen trying to make toilet poster face lololol    malay heritage musuem! :D          new dress 10bucks WOOHOO    yesterdays.      went mrt to meet them, cried. bugis street, cried. bugis junction, cried. BHG, cried. looked like crap today. but nvm, aft th 180cm photo i bcame me again. gladys was so scared of me cos i wasnt talking. she said that ern no talk = SUPER WEIRD. lololol (= thank you girlsssssssss, w/o u two i ll just be dehydrated laa! our matching BLINGBLINGS yeah! (= ohwells. :o i cant slp! my heart vvv sng. )= cant stop cryinggggg wahpiang ehhhhhhh STOP LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHH i hate you eyeballs, tsk Thursday, March 12, 2009
 K LAH! i cant lie to myself alrdy, I FEEL FKING HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY WHYWHY WHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHY WHY WHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHY WHYWHY WHY WWWWHHHHHHYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! twentyTWO, )=  shireen said this before, 'SUPERWOMEN ! we protect each other, in good times and bad. including health too. XD' now i know what she meant! reen&khong came to my house just now(= reen bought strawberrycheesecake! we ate th whole tub tgt, it felt so heartwarming! super good times man. we went on talking and dressing shireen up, haha! gladys and i were just lying on my bed doing nothing really - - shireen was mapling, talkin to boonhow on msn, bloghopping. hahaa. idk man. although we werent doing anything. it just felt so .. AWWW >< emo =" EmoX." style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">'aiyar, a few days later you see pictures of her and hongsheng again one laa.' im telling you, theres no way. once i ve cried like how i did for a guy, its impossible for me to ever be able to take him seriously ever again. i ll do it on my own i got my friends support &help my parents my sisters. i dont need to msg u every now and then to forget you, to call and know how youre doing. i went thru this a year ago, i can do it again now. if you need help, fine, i ll help. cuz im not like some heartless person, i know you have feelings. i wont torture u like u did to me. i have a heart to feel a brain to think. november last year, i told you i wanted a clean break w you. you told me you will nv give up. i trusted you. i gave u the chance, hoping that we can be like how we were in th past. just 48hrs ago, u held my hands in th bus, kissed me and hugged me like you would nv leave me. you accompannied me wherever i wanted to go. u told me how you wna spend th next 22nd tgt. u told me not to anyhow pao th guys at th chalet. u told me to dont be so close to jm. you told me you missed me. all happened 24hrs ago or earlier. now u suddenly tell me u just give up? dropped me just like that. i gained th trust i needed all these while. and now that its there, you throw me aside cause youve gotten everything you wanted. familiar line? thats exactly what u told me before. that i ve got everything i ever wanted, and i was thrwoing u aside. what kind of a shameless corrupted dirty disgusting horny son of a bitch are you ? my science centre trip will nv come! so what everyone said was right! you have changed (= you were th one who disturbed me non stop when i said i wanted a clean break w you. now you just leave me hanging like that, AWESOME! gna be another 24 hours at home. means a total for 72 hours home alrdy. means ernern is going crazy vvvv soon. SIANSIANSIANSIANSIAN pathetic life, tsk CHELSEAAAA, FASTER MOVE BACKKK! :D Wednesday, March 11, 2009
stayed home and watched tv on my parents bed th whole day. no kidding. gna be th same tmr, and tmrtmr? and tmrtmrtmr? what a life, = = IM-C / IM-M !!!!!! SO SAAAAAAD! )))))))))))))))):  was browsing through my pictures folder and i found this. heartwarming eh, hopefully some things dont change. haaaaaaaaaaiyoh - - |
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